The wind is blowing through my hair, swinging the cradle
I am holding the baby I left unborn in my arms
Cradle her, holding her, guarding her, loving her
I did not kill her, I gave her a chance
The chance on a better life, a real life, any life
She wouldn't have found it here
My skin would have been cool and she would never have found any warmth
I love her and that’s why I let her go
Before I ever saw her
It's shattering me thinking about it but I know I did the right thing
I am holding my baby, holding her tight and cradling her
Imagining how it would have been for the thousandth time
And cry
Cry, cry, cry
I let her go, let her fly
Another little angel, so innocent and pure
Life itself taints her
I let her unborn and she'll stay like this
Until she gets another chance
A chance on a new life, a chance on a real life
I know I did the right thing. I had to let her go
Not for me but for her. I couldn't have done this to her
Never let her live here. What kind of life would she have had?
With a human like me?
I saw and did many bad things but I am not a bad person
That’s why I let her go 'cause I love her
Nobody deserves to be pushed in a life like this
Unprotected in a world which taints, tortures, makes sick and kills
Kills the soul, the being and in the end the life
How could I have been this cruel?
Why does nobody understand it?
Why am I a cruel, heartless, evil human now?
Because I did not want my baby to suffer? Am I evil because of this?
Killer, baby-killer, bitch, whore, dirt, murderer, murderer, murderer
I gave her a new chance and I hope she’ll take it
I hope it so much my heart bleeds
I love you do you understand? I could not let it happen
I don't want to happen the same thing to you
Muderer, murderer, murderer.
They are shouting in my head and I am screaming. But I did the right thing
I am a lot of things but I am not a bad person
I hope you'll understand some day. Love is a complicated thing
I love you and I am sure you love me, too
‘cause you are visiting me every night, wiping away my tears and letting me cradle you
My baby, my dream, my hope, my daughter who will never be born